Hmm.

I haven't blogged a lot- not because school work is consuming my life, but because there always seems to be something else to do here and there.. I've been reflecting on what it means to have a passion for God's name. Maybe I'll blog about it when I have an answer.

Thanksgiving.

For a Year 4 medical student, I feel like an incredible slacker. I just spent my whole weekend doing all sorts of things beside medicine, and sometimes my lack of enthusiasm for my own learning worries me- not just for the examinations, but that if I was my own doctor, I'll be a bit wary of trusting myself. Haha. Which makes me wonder why the incoming batch of Year 1s are so eager to end their lives as they know it- starting a facebook group, meeting before medicamp, etc. I mean, these people are going to be stuck with you for a really long time, I'd rather meet other people I might end up losing time with along the way.

And you know, after 3 years of medical school (half the time just floating through it, to be honest), sometimes it does make me wonder as to what life will be like for the next 2 and beyond. I thank God that even at this point in my life, He's been faithful in many ways. Three things in my life I really thank God for in the past three years- 

1) That I've found a joy in ministry and being in His presence, though I fall short many times. It just reminds me that I'm still growing every day. Sometimes when I look at my past blog entries, I think them to be quite funny, 'cause they don't seem to be.. Me. Haha. And just as how God used the weak and the lowly of the world for His service, in ministry, I am pretty lousy to begin with too. Haha.

2) That my examinations have went well (including getting there on time). I remember when I started serving in BB in M1 and there was just so much to do- like going down to ACSI to join Charles for interviews- and just wondering how I would do in examinations. There's this constant fear that I'd be screwed since all my classmates were mugging like crazy and here I was, offering Saturday to God for ministry. And since I've never done an examination in medical school before, I'd no idea whether I was pitching my studying too low (it never seemed too high). But yes, God has been faithful. More than I had expected.

3) That perfect circumstances brought Sheena into my life. Perfect because I believe that everything was planned by God in His time, and God is perfect. Perfect not because she's perfect or that I'm perfect or that the love we have is perfect, but that God's love, which we must base our love or have nothing, is perfect.

So even as I've ended my first week of 25 weeks of non-stop schooling (of which whoever planned it so should be shot), I thank God for things thus far.

Year 4.

Today I gave a Bible study on Moses and how God called him out of the burning bush into ministry. Even tonight as I reflect upon what lies ahead in year 4, there's a certain uncertainty, a certain amount of sian-ness, and yet a certain amount of hope that God goes with me too- just as he had done with Moses. And just as God had empowered Moses with skills and miracles to do the task at hand, I pray that I will trust God to lead and guide me through all that is ahead.

The problem with holidays is that it leaves you wanting more. The last 2 weeks have been pretty awesome- going to Vietnam (well, GE wasn't so cool), zoo, baking, putting up my wall, lunches and dinners and time for little surprises. I suppose it won't be as awesome if I spread the whole thing over a few weeks and school was a distant memory, but that because it was so close at hand, these were precious moments which were to be savored. Of course, the prospect of going 25 more weeks before my next break is just a tinge absurd. Well, maybe not just a tinge.

I'm just glad that I got to have a phone call with Sheena before we plunge into the madness again. Actually, I should be glad that I have her as a blessing in the first place. =)

Jelly Hearts

We tried making Jelly Hearts today, but we figured that we could use the whole strawberry instead of doing the hearts proper.. Haha.. Great fun =)

 

  

From Philippines.

It's dreary all day until warm sunshine suddenly bursts through.

That's what it felt like tonight when I got her sms =)

Ho Chi Minh tomorrow- I need the holiday.

Paeds EOPT

Tomorrow is the Paeds EOPT. I wonder if I should be more scared of the OSCE or the theory paper.. But then, I remember this verse-

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust"'

- Psalms 91:1-2

I should be scared of neither.

Beautiful World

I decided to do something quite different today (after all that thinking of how tired I was of school).. I found the keys to my window grilles and moved them to one side so that I get a full view of what the world outside (my window) was like.. And it just happens to be a beautiful day- or maybe it's that every day is beautiful and that I've just been missing out on years of it.. And as I was worshipping God just now, I felt Him come near and very dear, to remind me that He is all I'm living for- and that is enough. =)

Which reminds me of what CS Lewis wrote, 

“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."

Thank God for days like that. =)